20070516

The worst thing in life is to be unsure of your feelings.
The direction of your heart is heading can make your mood fabulous or absolutely horrendous.

This stage of uncertainty sucks to the brim and takes away much of one's energy.
To ponder over it or not, sometimes, it is not up to you.
Strange thinkings keep streaming to your head at the most rendom times of the day.
You want to get over them, you really want to, but the more you want, the more it seems impossible.
Worse still, more thoughts start entering that tiny hole while you totally wish you could seal it up now, and forever.


You then ask the question, why?
You then ask the question, how come?
You then say words like, damn, oh shit!


Crazy, insanity!

Oh bullshit, come on!
They mean the same, you know they do.


Ultimately, you come to a fruitless decision.
Your thoughts are left hanging on a cliff.

Whatever you have thought of were to no avail.
Later, you blame yourself for wasting so much time, for wasting so much energy thinking about them.


And finally, I hate it when such shit happens to me.
Damn, this sucks to the maximum.


That familiar shadow, I see

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