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What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away


This will be the last time I shed a tear,
Because of you.

Mark my words.


If I were to say that I am happy.
That would be such an obvious lie.

Congratulations, never.


Fuck this bullshit.
These are not worth my time.

And I do not understand why I am still coming online.
It is kind of like a self-torture !
I know that coming online will allow myself to see things that I do not wish to see and read things that I wish I have never known.
Then why am I persisting on coming online ?
Yeah, especially to see you away.

So much to say, so much to say, so so much.
I do not know how to put them in words.
Neither do I know how to put them in actions.
Beyond words, beyond feelings, beyond my means.

I tried, yes, I tried but to no avail.
You stopped the connection, you did.
I tried, yes, I tried to communicate.
You stopped it, you did, you did, not me.
Why, I never got my answer and guess, I never will.


Forever is Never.


And never knowing
What could have been
And saying that loving you
It's what I've been trying to do

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