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today is a BAD DAY !
i am very much unhappy and irritated ! ):

why must my days always be like that ?
one day (: , then the other will be ): .
ahhh, i hate such a life !
odd number days ): , even number days (: .
screw it, i am so sick of it !

13022006 to today, 15022006.
i am known as the Green House Captain.
as the clock strikes, when 16022006 arrives, i am just a nobody.
not someone in the Committee, just someone from the House.
fuck, i am very sad now.
the discussion if i am the Captain or not has been coming on since the moment i got elected.
i have no choice but to drop it.
yeah, i cannot let it go, i am being honest here.
well, as time passes, i'll survive this shit.

sorry if anyone here reads this and say i'm being some spoilt brat or whatever things, i am just so upset.
i am quite sure no one has faced such a situation before.
now, inform the whole House, how emotional would that get ?!

i hate this entry, it's full of things i hate to happen.
say i'm selfish, say anything you like.
i am not in the mood for any other discussions.
being a bitch now, not accepting reality.
screw it, WAKE UP, MAN PIN !


why must everything happen at the same time ?
the time is just not right.
therefore, it is not fated for me to be the Captain though ..
OKAY, i guess, i should just shut up right now !

North Zone then Nationals soon.
Sports Day and i need to be organising things.
busy busy, stop thinking, YES !


Somebody, please try to convince me to let go.
To let go, yes, fully let go with no regrets.
Though i think, it's impossible..

okay, this is getting nowhere.
enough saying, GOODBYE !


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