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victory,
so near yet so far.
is it destined that i am not cut out as a winner,
is it true that i do not have the ability to set my destiny ?
like RANDY ORTON's SET YOUR OWN DESTINY,
he fulfilled it,
became the World Heavy Weight Champion,
became the Legend Killer.
nothing seems impossible,
impossible is nothing, in other words.

i want it,
but i cannot seem to have it.
i know, i do not get whatever i want whenever i want,
but so,
i want it just this time, this very time,
why can't i have it ?
again, is it just bloody fate ?
again, is it just my bloody destiny ?
i was a bitch,
yes, i admit i was.
i do not give a damn,
it was just too fucking bad that you had pissed me off first,
it was just a simple pay back time,
please get the picture right.
bloody MOFO !


defeated,
too fast too soon, before you know,
sad, disappointed, pissed,
tears rolled,
mind in a whirl,
world seemed crumbling,
left all alone.
:'(

LATER,

you,
made my day better, cheered up a little,
played for fun,
not exactly that long or short,
tired, worn out,
arm aching, back breaking,
but but but,
enjoyed a lot, very much,
THANK YOU !
:D :D :D


i want a change,
next year,
for the better,
for the sake of myself,
for the sake of my happiness,
for the sake of myself to play willingly and happily.
I HOPE,
i wish,
i pray my wish will come true.
PLEASE.
:/

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