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i am in a really big DILEMMA.
i don't like to be in such a fix.
i don't like to handle such stuff.
it is not nice to come to a decision.
and even if i were to come to one, it'll make one party unhappy.
oh bother, wht the hell !

this, i really don't wish it to happen.
everything has been going on so smoothly until one conversation which ruined it all.
and ironically, i wasn't even in the damn conversation.
i feel so victimised ?
i feel so, well, i really don't knw how to explain in words.
i am so agonised..
the feeling really sucks.

my expression to show it all >
-.- & -_-|||

and wht's the funniest thing ?!
i was looking so forward to THT day, with :D :D :D
i was anticipating it really loads and even started a countdown shit ?
wow, tht really rocked my socks !
i was so excited, so elated, so hopeful..
well, all boils down to - WAS.
THANK YOU for the WAS'.

i was made to come to a decision.
okay, i have made MY decision but my wish was not granted.
or rather, my wish could not be granted.
why why why ??!!!
i want it THT way, i want it MY way.
tht's the way it will be for ME if you were to ask me to decide.
arghhhh, this really ROCKS !

I GIVE UP,
DON'T ASK ME ANYMORE,
UP TO YOU ALL !

you just don't want to accept my answer then wht for ask me to give you one ?!
TOTALLY BULL.


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i like to speak with you but on the other hand, when i think of the things or thing tht you have done to me, i can't help but just wanting to snap at you. but on account of our couple of years of friendship, i shall just control. i appreciate the best wishes tht you have given me but i am sure tht you are so happy tht i have gotten tht instead of another. you jolly well knw tht i want the other and could help me achieve it but you just refuse to. i am utterly disappointed in you. i can't help but still think tht you really suck the hell out. TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT, BITCH.

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