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>> IMPOSSIBILITY ..?
>> once the person uses a different computer, it's impossible to track down the IDENTITY of tht person. well. since i have no wish of tracking down who Identity is then it's just bull of me saying all these stuff here. ohwells. ):
>> seriously, i have SOMEONE in mind who Identity is. whoever she is, im sure i regarded her as my damned good friend. well. but the present ? i simply doubt so. not tht i dont regard her as one but it's just reality tht dont allow me to do so. after much of ups and downs and this and tht, i'll just got to say GOODBYE to this friendship which i, deep down from my heart, would say tht i love it and definitely would treasure it. perhaps, one fine day, we would be good friends again..? or maybe, i shant think tht far, i would say tht one fine day, we will just be normal friends again.. if this day really comes, i woud damnit assure tht nothing of these stuff would happen. ... )':

>> LOSER IN FRIENDSHIPS.
>> never and NEVER would i expect such an outcome. i mean, why in the blue world would would i think of such shit to actually happen ? i mean, well, tht's simply wishful thinking on my part, really. this sucks. sighs.
>> friends dont just come and go.. but sadly, i got to beg to differ. they come as well as go too. maybe not all, not every single one but it's just a fact tht one fine day, i can picture myself left alone when it's just so pitiful. ):
>> the ppl i love, the ppl i treasure, the ppl i care for.. these ppl just dont exactly knw. some knw and damnit appreciate it. some knw but just dont give a damn abt it. some dont even knw. gheesh. this is tragic. life is so dreadful and reluctantly, i would and got to say, " LIFE SUCK ! "
>> im a super failure in friendships. though there are really good friends beside me when im down and totally out, i dont feel secure ? this feeling sucks, really. perhaps, it's just a fact tht you really shouldnt be too close to one person as the momont you have some tiffs, she'll just leave you and you're damnit left alone..
>> failure of friendship ? how do i define it ? i aint sure either. well. ...

>> LOOKING OR NOT ?
>> if you're not looking at tht person,
how would you knw tht person's actually looking at you ?
>> d:

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